Autodidactic as HSP with dissociation

As HSS, I always want to try and experience. As HSS, I like to learn and discover new things. As HSS, I am not afraid of the unknown, because my curiosity is greater than my fears. As HSS, I sometimes take certain risks that I cannot always foresee. I made many wrong decisions, in addition to good decisions. Especially I learned a lot through those wrong decisions, in an unpleasant way. Also in my negative youth I made wrong decisions, besides good decisions. Now that I am 62 years old, I realize that I not only have a lot of theoretical knowledge, but also a lot of practical knowledge. My work experience, life experience, my human knowledge and psychological knowledge have made me richer spiritually. I no longer need to read so many books, just like in my youth. Because of my interest in (para)psychology and esotericism, I have also learned in practice things that are not in books. Because of my interest in (para)psychology and esotericism, I continue to learn things that are not always in books. As HSP, I can quickly notice details whether I like it or not. Now that I am 62 years old, I recognize behavior that has to do with the mental disorders PTSD, (open and hidden) narcissism, gaslighting (cunning manipulation technique of hidden narcissism) and TPS. Because of my various temporary jobs in the Netherlands and outside the Netherlands, I have learned things that I have not learned at home with my parents. Now that I'm 62 years old, I notice I've learned more than I thought. Because like everyone else, I learn also through my experiences in my life, in an autodidactic way.