Mystery as HSP with dissociation

As HSP, I notice that people live in an automatic way to a large extent, without realizing it. Life itself determines the course of people's lives from birth to death, is my strong impression. The fact that I grew up in a family with the presence of the mental illnesses PTSD, (open and hidden) narcissism, codependency, gaslighting (cunning manipulation technique of hidden narcissism) and TPS, gives the impression that my life is going largely in an automatic way. There are things in life that I can deal with in a conscious way, because my current therapy makes me more and more aware of myself and my life. Despite the fact that I grew up in a dysfunctional family, there are aspects of life that can be explained in a logical way. There are also many aspects that cannot be explained, but, as HSS, I can deal with them in a realistic way. After all, as HSS, I am curious about the unknown.