Easy as HSP with dissociation

Due to the presence of the mental disorders PTSD, (open and hidden) narcissism, codependency, gaslighting (cunning manipulation technique of hidden narcissism) and TPS, in the family in which I grew up, I, as HSP, learned to think in a complicated way. As a child I let myself be distracted by my parents and the outside world. Now that I am 63 years old and making progress with my therapy, I realize that I can live my life in an easier way that suits me. I am not lazy. I don't avoid problems. It is a matter of being aware of the choices out there. My life started in a simple way in Indonesia in 1957. When I arrived in the Netherlands in 1962, my life became more and more complicated and restless. In 2007 I collapsed. Then I started to realize that I could experience my life in an easier way, as it suited me. Now my life is getting easier again. As HSS, I am curious about my options. Why should I think in a hard way when I can think in an easy way? The easier I live my life, the more energy I will have each day for what I find important myself.