Gypsy Heart

When you hear the word 'Gypsy' you tend to think of it as someone who doesn't know where they want to live or be. Perhaps they aren't satisfied to stay in one place for any length of time before the urge strikes them to move on. Gia considered her mother as having 'gypsy blood'. She was never satisfied to live in one place for longer than a year, and sometimes less. She uprooted her family numerous times so there was no particular place to call 'home'.

Gia Lake referred to herself as having a 'Gypsy Heart'. Her heart belonged to no one. As a young girl, she had already dealt with abuse and betrayal. She felt disconnected from everyone and feelings escaped her. She'd never learned how to love but how could she when she had never experienced anything like it. She had been told, by her Sunday School teacher, that Jesus loved her, but she didn't understand what it meant. Jesus was someone she could not physically see or touch, so it was not likely that someone unseen could actually love her when people all around her did not. She felt empty, alone and forgotten. She had never heard the words 'I love you' in her longest memory.

She built protective walls around her thoughts, feelings, heart and soul. Still, they had been torn away by so many that it had led to trust issues. She had developed these trust issues at a very young age and, would not allow herself to accept love, and had difficulty giving it. She allowed the wall to be torn down only once. It had taken a stranger and a whirlwind romance like no other before or since. She found no need to protect herself with Beau.

Did those walls go back up when he moved on without her? Would she ever find love again? Only she had the answer to these questions.