Unlovable

The effects of abuse last a lifetime. Mental illness. Depression. Abuse. Rape. Words like that carry such a stigma. Those who have never experienced them have trouble understanding. Those who have endured often have no voice. We're battered and broken, afraid of being judged or pitied. Unlovable is a first-hand account of my life as a survivor. It begins with a retelling of the abuse I endured then ventures into how that abuse has bled and oozed into every aspect of my life. Brutally honest and raw, I discuss depression and abandonment, dysfunctional relationships and sex. I share my experiences with suicidal feelings and the difficulty faced when trying to find help. Finally, I invite readers to look with me towards the future, trying to stay strong and face life one day at a time. I write for all those who did not survive their struggles. I write for the survivors who have no voice and struggle to find the strength to get out of bed each day. I write because my depression is killing me inside. I write because I am tired of others defining me and making me feel worthless. I write because I refuse to accept I'm unlovable.